What do you think of euthanasia?
It has been discussed by public for a long time. I don't want to make a conclusion. Listen to my story and then maybe you can give me an answer.
One day of six years ago, my mother told me she didn't feel so well. I took her to the hospital and the doctor went over her carefully. Then the doctor said" Cancer ,the last part time of cancer ",I was shocked. From then on, the whole family was surrounded with a bitter atmosphere, we wouldn’t like to accept it at all, we cried, we prayed, we didn't believe. But days after, we calmed down and set up our mind to try our best to save her life, no matter how much money we should pay, we would pay.
After being treated for more than 2 years, things didn't get well and my mother was weaker and weaker, but she was expecting another miracle, she kept on drinking those bitter Chinese medicines, suffered from the great pain caused by her disease, she never told us how painful she was, but we could see every expression on her face. What can we do for her?
The latest two months of her living in the world is the most miserable for her, she couldn’t get up .She couldn’t eat anything by herself, she couldn’t deal with her everything. I had to feed her with a little spoon, little by little. Another days later, she could eat nothing. I remembered her lastest dinner was five jellies, fed by me, used that small spoon.
Things got much worse from then on, she couldn’t get into asleep, couldn’t drink any drinks, and still the pain afflicted her terribly. Tears filled with our eyes, but what could we do? This situation lasted for almost 20 days, she just opened her eyes widely , said nothing , stared at the steam from hot water. So one day I couldn’t bear. I told my father my grandmother and all my brothers and sisters, we had to do something to help her, they knew what I meant ,but they didn’t stop me.
The next day morning, I went to the hospital and show all her case materials to the doctors and begged the doctors to help her. The doctors also show their pities to me .They ordered some injections to me, they were called “杜冷丁”，I don’t know how to say it in English, they told me to used it when it was necessary. I went home with those injections. All of us looked at them, saying nothing, tears ran out of from our eyes just like a heavy rain. Mother was so thin and so pale at that time, who would like to give her the injections? I myself, I said . Though I was not a nurse and never gave somebody an injection.
My hands shook when the pinhead went into her muscle, I couldn’t help crying out. But immediately she fell into asleep, a fast asleep, a deep asleep, silently, quietly, with a gentle gasp, just like a baby. We laughed with tears on our faces. One injection worked for 8 hours. I gave her another one every 8 hours. Altogether I gave her 5 injections and one day she suddenly open her eyes, looked around the whole room, looked at us with her senseless eyes and then closed her eyes forever. She left the world without a word.
Many years has passed, but all these situations still appear in my mind .I don’t know whether it is called euthanasia or not, but it actually can make a person who rack with cancer reduce bitter. So, what do you think of euthanasia? Maybe it is a good thing once we need it.
I never consider I am a killer~~~~~~~~




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The Last Day of His Life
I have much tears streaming down my face now . I admire you ! but I don't know whether you did right ?
My middle school teacher left me many years ago when I studied in university , I heard from my mom that he got cancer, I visited him in his room , I couldn't believe it that my teacher was in his amazing spirit the time I met him in person , because I couldn't discern any sign of disease , not alone cancer . he was wearing a clear white shirt tucked into trousers banded by his quality strap , looking down upon his shoes , it was a pair of white sporting shoes . he was mettlesome and cheerful without any shred of worries revealing upon his face , I talked with him about life and my study , he encouraged me to study intelligently to be a useful person in the society .and I felt invigorated and also I presumed that my teacher could get through affliction attacked by cancer .
Half year later , I was told by my mom that my teacher was at the verge of his life , I couldn't believe it at all since I got convinced by my judge that my teacher was a spirited and optimistic man not so easily to be conquered by disease, nevertheless, I came home to visit my teacher another time . I has many things to talk with him and prepared some topic to talk , and I was thrown into blackout the minute I saw my teacher's face , he was leaning upon his sister's body to greet me with his eye contacts . I was reduced to numb and speechless yet I gathered all my strengh and sense to squeeze a far-fetched smile attempting to send a posive message that his situation could be better . and I did it and eventually I failed , big drops of tears were irresistible anymore and dropped beyond of purposeful constraint , in fearing of any negative inpact my tears could possibly bring to my teacher ,I swerved my head letting my tears escaped from my teacher's eye catch, when I looked back I realized that I couldn't withstand the outpouring tears anymore and I cried out hugging my teacher .
Four days later , he left .I cried in my university .it is so helpless for us to stop the end of life . but we have to face it and get good comprehension of it , If I am in my last period of life incapable to talk , and I do hope I won't get a lethal help , I prefer undergoing the lacerated pain . because I want to survive any minute god endowed me and live through of it ,and I know that others prefer ending it by getting help.
We need know better what kind of person our beloved is and get a right choice .


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please value our life when it is at our hand
please cherish our health when it is still sound
please honour our duty to concern who are needed when they are still in need
please treasure our beloved when we still have them
please worship those who deserve it when they are still alive
please adore those who are lovely and loveworthy .

yeah . value and cherish our friends and beloved
right now and from now on
act !

That 's really touching indeed. thanks ,yiren and tongtong for your real story.
....
.....recently I finished watching a series of TV play named "six feet under"...

....That 's the best play I ve ever watch.

The main role is a family, two brothers, a younger sister and a mother

They lost the father one day . and it tell us how they face the death.

Death is not that depressing. just because of the exist of death, life became

important , life is brief and a one-time game,which makes it valuable...

so ..just like what SKY has said , enjoy every moment, what is the difference

between 20years and 80years old? we never know how much we get...
..
......Thanks God, at least I am alive...hehe

yeah. this is quite meaningful topic actually for us to depore value of life and wise perception of life . thanks ,ivanhoe for your wonderful opinion .

xueqin,
i still remember the days u told me how to pronounce euthanasia,
but at that time, i couldn't know ur feeling from ur heart just like a idiot.
i am surely a dolt.[em72]

After know about you life ,I feel it's right !you mother,at least,is
no pain while she will leave for heaver.It may be best thing for you mother and she could be comprehension!
you are fealty to you the lovest MaMa!